Mycotoxin Cleaning plans for me

I plan on going home friday or Saturday and I have already bought shockwave and Concrobium cleaners and now I am not sure if I want to use those, I also have looked into ozone machines ..AND honestly I am not sure I want to use those, my gut is saying use baking soda and lemon with some tea tree oil and wipe down all the walls.

 Urggg there are so many suggestions on what to do what not to do and a person never knows what is going ot be right for them .. with our breathing sinus issues I just worry that maybe less is more in the way of cleaning since our systems have already been so degraded from living with mold for so long I worry anything we do may have a adverse affect ...

 Went out to the house yesterday and it smells weird in there I hope its just  the big sheets of plastic we still have hanging everywhere and when those are gone the smell will go with it .. 

 Andrew and I went to home depot and bought some paint for his bathroom and some mildew mold resistant primer and of course I am worried about using that too ..Good God I just worry over everything ..I just want us to continue to improve..

 I am so very happy that we are going home the beginning of spring and summer I will have months to air out the house and clean with all the windows open and it will be hot and I plan on letting the house cook all summer and just spend more time in the swimming pool , we will see how that plan works when its 110 degrees outside LOL I will be buying a new window A/C just in case the heat is too much ..

 The thing is mycotoxins are hard to get rid of and I have not found and sure fire plan to make them disappear except time lots and lots of time like years and years and I am scared of them as much or more so than toxic black mold ...

Movie day

This link takes you to the website of a movie called Moldy ..very eye opening and explains what others have http://www.movie-life.net/movie/moldy/

Closer and closer to going home

I never would have thought the day I walked out of my house February 15th 2016 I would still not be home April 6th 2016 Wow ...But what a blessing to have such a loving warm home to stay in while I wait for my home to be fixed ..

 I am getting nervous that I will be one of those who is never able to go back to my home due to mycotoxins in the walls .. We have plans on cleaning paiting and scrubbing every surface when I do go back ..I also plan on getting a tent to rest in durning the day out in the yard ..

 We r going to make the living room our first safe room even though its open to the kitchen dining room and halls , we may have to rethink that decision time will tell...

        I still do not have much energy and that worries me, where and I going to draw up energy for this huge task in front of me I have no clue .. My brain feels good I just need the rest of me to catch up and I have a feeling I will go downhill while going through things when I get home .Lets just say its going to take a good long while ughhh... I want it now , been sick too long already ...But I am thankful summer is coming and I am not attempting this going into wintertime ..

Recoved from Mold hit

I slept wonderful last night and woke up with a clear nose so I seem to recover from those mold hits pretty easily at least in my sinuses Andrew was saying his ear was hurting last night I pray when he wakes up its feeling better if not ..gotta call his doctor ...

delayed Mold toxin hit

well I went to the house day before yesterday to go through toxic crap from the house out on the deck ..I did get a headache and could feel the mold dust in my nose so I quit and then was fine that night and yesterday... then last night I didn't sleep well and woke up today with puffy eyes and feeling the mold hit....Does anyone else have a delayed reaction like that ...I was doing so well while away for like 2 weeks ...I will have to help go through out stuff after remediation.... that will suck !!!!!!!! but so far I seem to be lucky and process the stuffy nose in a couple days after the hit, but not looking forward to that............ I just hope my home will not do this to me after everything is finished being thrown out and cleaned with shockwave I picked shock wave just because I need to pick something

Took a lil trip home and no stuffy-ness this morning yay..

The moulding from around the sliding glass door ..Really had no idea the living room was so infested
... we will find out Tuesday or Wednesday if the house is clear for us to go back home ..Rylan and I went out yesterday to see if our nose and my tastebuds would pass the mold test and it feels pretty clear ...I also went through things on the deck that randy moved out for the remediators..That did give me a headaches and I could taste that awful mold taste in my nose and mouth so I stopped after about a hour ...Lots of work when we do get home to fee the house of every bit of dust ...

                I am just so hopeful for the furture ... feeling so much better these days my mind feels so clear and fresh I am still not full of energy its going to take a while to be completely well but baby steps are ok with me ..I truly think this has been a big contributor to our ill health all these years...

          Andrews eyes are improving daily when we got out they were black as black could be now they are more a dark tan color ...we have started our supplements and vitamins going at it slow to make sure we don't have a bad reaction to any of them ... 

The men in the white suits ...

The men in the white suits that look like they are going in and out of a toxic waste site are in my house ...I told Randy I want some pictures to share on my blog ..I hope he gets some today ...I myself don't dare go back out there after our reaction the other day to my home ..its such a beautiful home and I pray we get to live there when its been cut scraped sprayed air scrubbed of yucky black toxic mold so far they have found mold in the doorway from the laundry room to the hall I was not expecting for them to find mold there , its sounds as if they are being thorough as they follow the trail of mold trail so that makes me feel good ...my sinus's are about clear from out trip there almost a week ago ..wow all those sick years and feelings of dread there and now a answer I feel very blessed sure its taking any money that we have that I could of possably taken a vacation to see the ancient city of Petra I have always wanted to go there and honestly never really thought I would go but thinking about the money we are spending on the house makes me wonder should we have lived more frugal in a smaller home and taken more vacations ??? I don't know I really love my home and our lil piece of land with our seasonal creek I guess u could say many people would pay money to spend a few weeks on our lil piece of Heaven on earth ..

      I have a good and happy life a loving husband awesome kids and now a new chance at a healthy life and I am going to embrace it as I never have before HOPE is so exciting ...

   I am sad that most doctors I have spoke to don't have any thing to say about toxic mold not even a question about it ..they just kind of breeze right over it ..My new prayer is that more people become knowledgeable about it and all the health issues it can cause and even though every one will not have the exact same symptoms when exposed its real very real....

 I am happy that I was able to order and pay for the ERMI testing that I ordered from a website called momsaware if you google them they have lots of great information and you can order the test...

 I am thankful for facebook and the mold awareness groups who honestly helped me keep my sanity in the first week of what I needed to to do ...they are a group of people just like me sick and tired and scared and worried .. I didn't and don't feel alone when I read the posts their and they also helped Randy understand more of what I was going through ....

 I am so happy I have a husband who listened to me and stood by my side ( maybe a bit because he thought I was off my rocker and nuts for running off as I did and might need mental help at some point LOL ) The day I left my home I was very weak both in health and in my mind but I made my decision and I stood by it BTW he has to tell our neighbor friend that I am not a psychotic nut job that neighbor had the joy of happening to be there one day while I stood outside in the rain because I refused to go in the house this was before the ERMI test resuts had come back ...

everyday is one day closer to being home again and I am thrilled about that ...  

More water leaks under the house TOXIC BLACK MOLD

The water damage in our house is much worse than we thought ...the mold remediators are there doing more testing and the whole floor from our bathroom, clear to the dining room is wet from another water leak we didn't even know was there ..I am not sure the leak has even been found yet ...I need to call Randy and get a update ..My most important advice to everyone is when your gut tells you something is wrong, very wrong, follow your instincts...I pray we will get our health back 100% ...I am so glad I left that house as if it was on fire... it was a very hard thing for me to do, just up and tell Randy we were leaving and I would not come back till we found the problem ...I was tired of seeing my kids and me sick all the time....... something was wrong and turns out I was right ...Now I need to look back on my blog and see if my illness started when the water heater leaked and we had it fixed... I know it was around that time ...and that been since 2008 or 2009 ...

Sciatica and mold photos grrrr ...

I have been feeling pretty good since I left the mold house ...then last night Rylan had his 3rd bloody nose since we left 2 weeks ago and my back and scatic nerve are really really hurting today it is the mycotoxins putting up a fight, the yeast, the mold that's in our body's.... I don't know ...Today I will buy lots of yummy organic veggies to juice... lucky Jeanie has the same juicer that I do, so I already know how to use it ...I will also get stated on bone broths, Chicken will be it and I will make yummy healthy foods from it ...

             I have hope for a healthy future for us now that I am 99.9% sure I know what has been making us sick its just going to take time ...oh and lots of money .... Jean said we can stay as long as we need to it will be helpful for us and for her she will be in the rehab for her broken hip about 3 more weeks and this healthy way of eating we are doing again will be very good for her recovery so things are going to work out ... for her and for us !!!

 I recieved the saddest text from Randy last night

**** This is going to be a daunting task. I look around at all the memories, and wonder what we can keep and what must go. I want to wait until we talk to her expert before we throw too much away. I'll get rid of magazines that are of no value, that's easy. But when I see dr. Seuss books and Rylan school books I have a different feeling. Lord help us.****

 That made me cry its very hard to look around your home all the memory's of past trips and gifts from family who have passed on things that really are not replaceable for the feeling you have when you look at them, so those things will be stored untill we can figure out how to clean them or at the very least we will know we still have them we just wont look at them everyday ...My lil Wyatts foot and hand mold , Tegan and Taylors handprint footprint tiles just so many things ...and it not something he can really do his own so I am planning when the weather gets a lil nicer and all the doors and windows can be open I will go in that house to help but I will not allow the boys inside under any circumstance I just read this morning about a 11 year old boy who died at 11 years old he had mold in his bedroom and was healthy till 11 then had a anurisumwas it from the mold or just his lot in life ??? I don't know but I certianly do not want to take a chance Rylan has already lived in it his whole life and it scares me it was hidden you wouldn't even know it was there my house is not like the pictures you would see if you google toxic mold house this is what our mold looks likethis was hidden in my closet behind a rubber maid tote

And this grew after our roof leaked we had the roof replaced last summer but I never knew that this could be hiding mold it just looks water damaged...The way we learned our roof was leaking it the snow melt in 2014 was a drippy mess on our sliding glass doors at first we thought it was from when the deck roof meets the house but that spot on the ceiling that had been the size of a half dollar grew..I believe the roof probably had a lil leak the whole time we have lived there but I can not be sure 

 So you see what I mean and of course I have killed mold spots here and there over the years with bleach and that is a huge no no because once you kill the mold it send off mycotoxins that make you even sick that the mold ughhh ...

Mindi is still so very sick

She has been sick for 3 weeks or more and now vomiting I am just so worried about her went to the ER yesterday becaus eher chest is hurting so much they gave her vicodins and now this morning she is vomiting ...I just need her to get better I am so very very worried ...she stated a new antibiotic thursday and it don't seem to be kicking in yet ..Linecare never delivered her nebulizer I call the docs on friday to tell them and still nothing

A new me

So I was thinking today ...after getting Mindi home and on some good pain meds as I was driving by the hip clothing store over in the old Rite aid complex and realized this is my chance to totally change up my wardrobe, since all my clothes are going in the trash ..what kind of style do I want to be ? I am starting from scratch and not going to have hordes of clothes I never wear ever again.... I want a nice selection of about 20 items to mix and match not my usual clearance isle and goodwill selections...I might be a new and improved version of me soon ...right now we are living in cheap pajamas and 1 pair of pants and a shirt for town but I am going to have to get something soon ...

Run Run as fast as I can .....

Today my Randy finally got to see how our Rylan breathing has improved since we left mold house.. I am so happy.. I was so scared to even leave my home, knowing it was so hard for me to do without my Randy's blessings ...Things are turning for the better he is accepting that it is our house making me and the boys sick and now he seen the proof ...Randy works long hours and we only seen him about 15 minute a night because he is staying at mold house to care for our animals and he works very long hours ...Rylans air hunger is almost completely gone.. though he gets out of breath quickly, while playing, that may be life long I am afraid, since he has lived in that house his whole life ... Randy took him to the park, while I went to the ER with Mindi who has pneumonia ( she does not live with us) So for those who are scared like I was of leaving, and what people think, just give yourself permission to do what feels right in your gut ...My gut said run for your lives, so I did ....

Day 10 out of Mold house

Well its Day 10 out Rylan breathing is finally looking like its improving ...I stll wake up clear headed and thats good Andrew has a bad case of jock itch going and from what I understand yeart and mold go together hand in hand so I am thinking his body is detoxing by doing that he would get that at mold house to along with thrush and I battle yeast as well ...Mindi has been very very sick for the past 3 weeks and is on her 3rd round of antibiotics she does not live in mold house and has not for years she just got some really bad chest thing going on  ..I feel like I will be better able to blog better when my kids are feeling better its very stressful ...Andrew in pain for a year with that stupid boil scare ,Rylan not breathing right , Mindi so sick I think she should be in the hospital and it all scares me to the point that I just have to keep myself calm ...and my eyes still are a bit fuzzy looking at the computer screen hopefully that will improve over time ...Randy and i have not really had time to talk my phone is crap so can't talk on it and he has to rush to mold house everyday to feed the animals ..So our game plan is not set in stone yet ...Still need to talk to the remeiderator guy and find out costs and stuff I want to get a travel trailer to live in on the property and wait till the heat of summer to do the house and give it a good time to completely dry out after all this rain ...

Toxic Mold House 2016

Well what do you know..........Our house was killing us.... I think this has been our issue for at least 8 years, when I started getting really sick... I will now be trying to blog our journey through toxic mold house hell ...my hope is that is will help someone and also for Rylan to understand why things are being done that he may understand completely Like leaving our house with basicaly just the clothing on our backs ...He is not yet 10 years old we left our house with pretty much the clothes on our backs and life saving medications and Andrews c-pap we stayed at a motel for two day and now at my late fathers house ..I am so very thankful for a place to stay while we figure things out Randy is staying at mold house to care for the animals he seems to be the least affected ....

 Me and boys are showing improvements already, my head feels better not foggy and tired and lazy I feel actually kinda smart :-)  Andrews sinuses cleared up with in days and his headaches went away , Rylan has only had 2 bloody noses , his breathing is still funky but I think its slowly improving I will be happy when its all they way better ....This is only day 8 out of the house.....We received our ERMI results 2 days ago and our house has Stachybotrys chartarum level 2 and Aspergillus of many varieties I will post my results in a later blog for now I just want to get started by starting :-) HA.... Today is a beautiful day and I am air out our safe house the freash sunny weather feels so good  .